When I was a girl I loved dolls. I was obsessed with all things baby and had a porcelain doll with beans inside to make it feel more 'real'. His name was David. I had a second-hand pram for David and a toy cot. My best friend Amy purchased her own porcelain doll and many a day was spent caring for our babies. I asked my mum countless times to have a baby. She laughed at me.
When I was about 12 I convinced my mum to borrow a BTIO (Baby Think It Over Doll) from the school where she worked so that I could look after it for a weekend. I set up my childhood cot and took it everywhere with me. It was great.
As I grew older I began working and my desire for a baby went on the backburner. I hoped to get married, and then have babies. My periods were mostly regular and I had cramping at that time of the month, which was normal, I thought. I went on the pill to prevent pregnancy (LOL).
When I was 19 I met my now husband, Chris. Everything was wonderful. I had some more abdominal cramps so I went to the doctor who ordered an ultrasound. That ultrasound found a cyst on one of my ovaries.
Despite taking the contraceptive pill, which was supposed to stop the cyst from growing, then cyst got bigger and my doctor recommended it be removed. During the laparoscopy the gynaecologist noted that I had mild endometriosis and burnt it off. I had a bad reaction to the anaesthetic and had to be readmitted to the hospital. The gynaecologist told me that the sooner I had children the better my chances were of being able to have them.
I stayed on the pill for the next 7 years, skipping the sugar pills to avoid periods, though I did have breakthrough spotting most of the time so it didn't really work!
In December 2012 I went off the pill (after getting married) and visited the gynaecologist to discuss my risks, and he performed an internal ultrasound, telling me that everything was normal. We decided to monitor my periods and try to conceive for the next year.
For the next year my periods were irregular. One month it came, then not for two months and then two months in a row and then not till two months after. In January 2014 my periods became regular after I started taking vitex and stopped eating meat after some digestive problems. They came every month (31-34 days) and I began taking OPKs (test strips you wee on to test the LH level in your urine) and taking my basal body temperature when I woke up each morning.
Most months I got a positive LH test around day 20 and then my BBT spiked around day 22 and stayed elevated till day 34.
I decided to go back to the gynaecologist as I've been timing BD to just after my positive OPK for several months to no avail. I asked my GP to send me for an ultrasound to take with me to the GYNO. I was told after this appointment that my ovaries are 'borderline polycystic'. This absolutely devastated me...
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